JW: Do you feel the ability to sell comes less easily to us than the Americans? The self- confidence or perhaps the projection of self- confidence?
PW-B:The projection of self-confidence – I feel so aware of the bullshit humility game that we all play.When I went to drama school one girl who ended up luckily becoming a good friend of mine, the first thing she ever told me was: “I was really nervous about singing at drama school because I can’t sing a note.” I said I was really scared about having to stand up there and sing in front of everybody and she was like: “I know, it’s mortifying.” Then she’s the absolute kickass singer of the whole year. I felt pure hatred for her.
JW: Do you find yourself bending creatively sometimes? It’s good to be true to yourself but half of it is how you can then articulate your vision.
PW-B: It’s so funny, pitching this week with Vicky who’s my kind of... how can I describe her? We’re actually not writing partners but we’re both writers and we help each other with each other’s work. I would never have written a word without her and she was a director and I was an actor when we first met. I begged her for a job.Then we became best friends and we realised the other day that we’re each other’s muse.
JW: Your work wife.
PW-B: My work wife, yes, but quite seriously she is my muse and my inspiration.We’re going to be that way for the rest of our lives I think.
JW: Lots of the actors we speak to in the magazine, will, at some stage have been through RADA, LAMDA, Juilliard, Lee Strasberg or somewhere similarly lauded. Some hold on to their experiences very dearly, while others seem to consciously unlearn much of what they were taught. Do you fall into either one of those particular camps?
PW-B: I didn’t have a very good time at drama school so I guess I’m the latter. I had to unlearn everything.The most important thing that I did learn was the technical side of it.
JW:You mean the process-driven approach to acting?
PW-B: No, fuck no. I unlearned all of that stuff. I’m sure something would have sunk in somewhere about that. Actually it was really about being able to use my diaphragm and use my body. It has a huge amount to do with stage acting. Even that, during school you’re told to basically become a perfectly Alexander-ed creature and be able to breathe and you’d be critiqued on your breathing, which is so confusing.You think, ‘I’ve been doing it my whole fucking life I know what I’m doing.’ I literally thought that acting was being a walking, talking, breathing elegant potato. I was quite young; I was seventeen or eighteen when I went there, so I was trying to get it all right. I remember I got in there by doing insane auditions, just wanting to play fifty-year-old women. Then you end up sort of playing princess roles.
JW:You said you were a terrible actress.
PW-B: At drama school, then I got better. I thought I was quite good before I went to RADA then I went all the way through RADA and got a bit good again after two years.
JW:When did you meet Vicky?
PW-B:Very insightful, that’s when I got better again.
JW: How does the process of writing with her then affect your acting?
PW-B: I felt like my job had changed compared to when I was at drama school. Acting was being really, really real. Acting like a normal person so brilliantly that people believe that what you’re doing is real and then make them laugh, entertain them, surprise them and have a ball when you’re doing it. Honestly that was as simple as it was. I remember having to play Desdemona and I took Desdemona as a horny young chick who had just fallen in love with this hot bomb who had turned up at her dad’s house. She was basically just a horny young woman. I could relate. I would just play her like that and then all these conversations were like no it’s so much more complicated than that. That’s why I was really struggling. If I just played her like that – where is he, I need him, please let me fuck this man – that was more fun, more entertaining. Then at drama school you had to over-intellectualise your own emotional experience as a character. I just got more and more discombobulated and I thought,‘Oh god, I can’t speak to what my instincts are anymore.’When I left, I met Vicky when she was directing me. She’s such a good audience for a start, which makes her a fantastic director. She watches you not with this critical eye, she watches you as if to say: ‘Surprise me, do something.’ Basically I just acted for her, which was more fun than anything else.The more real I was, the more silly and surprising I was. She was all about finding the moments where you can surprise the audience and move somebody, about the truth of it rather than the big mysteries.There were so many directors she knew who would talk about directing in the same way, like it was this mystical thing. Everyone’s holding so tightly onto the idea that what they’re doing is really difficult and fascinating.
JW:Am I right in thinking that Fleabag was originally a ten-minute sketch? At that point did you have very early initial grand designs as to what it could be? Did you see a path it would take:a play and then on to aTV series?
PW-B: No, a friend of mine asked me to do ten minutes for her standup storytelling night. She had been trying to get me to do standup for ages and I was uncertain. It’s just a very different type of performance. I know that there’s still a persona but what you’re essentially saying is: this is me and my sense of humour. I realised I didn’t know why I had said no because it’s only ten minutes. I very specifically wrote those ten minutes just to make Vicky laugh.
JW: So how did you begin to build out a ten-minute sketch into a fully-fledged performance?
PW-B:You don’t look at it for six months then, three weeks before you go up to Edinburgh, you have a complete breakdown and re-write the whole thing. I have really bad time management issues. Actually I felt so bad about it for so long and then the other day my mum said to me,“you’ve always been a last-minute merchant”.
JW: Do you work well under pressure?
PW-B: I guess so because everything I’ve done has been under pressure. From some of the pressure I will literally be in physical pain. I’ve questioned whether or not I need it or if it’s just being really lazy. I think it’s a mixture. Writing Fleabag 2, I care so much about the series – so much – that actually sitting down and having to engage with how much I care about this thing in front of me on my computer is exhausting. I’d much rather go have a nap or a sandwich or something.